these are the photos im including in my portfolio for fine arts... tell me if you like them... or dont... either way...

for oh my God it found out me... amazing love how can it be...

i rember once someone inconsiderately saying... no one wants to hear the words Cancer... its a death sentince... he didnt know that my father had that word in his body at that very moment... almost 3 years since then and luckly there things were looking all clear... that is untill my dad announced today that he found a new lump... not to say it is cancer... just saying its a lump... but thats scarry as hell no matter what... espcially beucase its a lump found in the same region as the previous cancer... i dont want to beilve that its cancer no one does... i just want to try to get it out there and be a little less afraid becuase i was soo strong last time and i know that i cant be thats strong this time... if i have to go through the same thing that is... truth is... i havent been feeling 100% for a while now... i think that being the "strong one" for most of my life has left me weak and tired. i actually stared at my wrists last night for a long time... just looking at my veins watching my life go by... wondering what was next... im so weary of it all. i dont need your sympathy but if you could find it in you to pray please do... good night.